I am happy.

As always, it's been a while. No internet=no blog. Worse, no computer=writing on paper... I have all sorts of ideas from the last two months thrown around on paper. Needless to say, my house may never be clean. Or rid of my late night writing antics. I wont lie, I sort of like it. It reminds me that I do have somewhere to put all my thoughts... Some thoughts that I'm not quite ready to share with the world.

Today I feel as though I have some explaining to do. A dear friend of mine asked me today if I was okay. I couldn't think of even one reason why he would think I wouldn't be. That was until he mentioned he had a sneak peak of my latest update.. which yes, I suppose wasn't the happiest thing I've ever written in my life. Let me just put this out there - I AM a happy person. You may read this, or possibly stumble upon my more conflicted self here, but know, I am happy. Everything isn't always so sad, or too terrible to keep me from smiling. In fact I am pleased with life, nothing is too hard, thankfully. I wont lie and say it's easy and I definitely can't say I don't have rough days, but life is what you make it. So I just chin up and remember, life isn't crappy right now, it's just different than I planned.